Thursday, April 17, 2014

Zoom Out




























Zoom Out


And you’ll know the insignificance
                               Of your life.
And the relief of your problems’
                          Lost smallness.

But what happens in this macroscopic dilation?

From a wide enough viewpoint everything is right.
Or is everything wrong?
                                    No, everything is neither.

The allotment of praise here and blame there
disappears.
    Complexity obliterates the thinking agent.
Leaving only fortunate and unfortunate parts of the world.

This is how an omniscient god would have to see things
To forgive all.
Let's say there is a murder:
The evil does not squirm in a single location. There is none
in the data. The deity sees all influences: nothing short of everything
That occurred beforehand ever everywhere. There is no choice,
Only an illusion of choice in the murderer, the jury, the deceased,
And in such fellows as I, crawling between ideas.
                                                                         The entire universe
Committed the act, and every other act too – Every flinch or blip
Of motion is a conspiracy of all particles to effect all particles.

This is how an omniscient god would have to see things
To forgive all.

But we can’t see things that way. Or we wipe away
The whole edifice of agency; of self itself.
Yes, the pang of guilt is gone, but with it goes you.
The bathwater, the baby and the bathroom too.

Our Virtue and Vice is but splitting hairs to the Gods
But we must keep to our solid illusions, choosing this
Over that, sometimes that over this. Or believe we’ve chosen
At least.
If life is a technique, it needs a dream of self to drive it.


Zoom back in.

Monday, April 14, 2014

ESP



















ESP
 
I wish I knew what hurtled in the fray
To land in words emerging in my say.
I can’t see ten seconds ahead to know
What I’ll speak and what I’ll leave below.
I long for a hint of clairvoyancy
To waft soft inklings of buoyancy –
 
It’ll lift my spirits, soothe my plumbing,
To know beforehand what’s coming.
A short-term early future-sight:
A moment before a dog will bite;
A sense that two cars will collide;
The whiff of an avalanche, about to slide.
 
Or in the mundane scrape of life against life
Where smaller calamities are rife,
When woe had hardly started yet
Before the sounds and ears had met,
I’d shave a blinksworth off a guess
And pluck quick thinking from the mess.
 
Just a slice of soonerness, a shred,
Not hours, years, lifetimes ahead.
Just to know my own intentions
In case there need be interventions.
 
But yearning for this cheatful grace
I only see its positive face.
To live with a constant foretold dose
Of every moment, shuved up close,
Is likely to prove a deadly weight
I’ll be crushed by, not defeating, fate.
All the more forlornly lost
Paying this extra-feature cost
Of watching what I knew would be
Unfolding still unstoppably.
 
So I think I’ll stick with the Now I know
Carrying memories in tow
And loose myself to the Present tide
As painful as it is to ride.